Rethinking AA

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What up! What up! What up y’all! Today is Saturday July 28, 2018 and it marks my 40th sober day and as always, I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT! No anxiety, no depression, no hangover, no regrets… I mean nothing! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a rethinking AA note! Even though a couple of weeks ago, I said that after many years of absence, I would give AA a second chance. But to be honest with you, I’ve been having second thoughts about that. You see, the thing with me is, that I keep listening to members who share their stories about how alcohol affected their lives. What I can’t understand is, that they have been sober for five, ten and even over twenty years now, but yet they keep re-living their past, and I have a problem with that. My thing is, that even after all my fuck ups during my drinking career, I do feel bad, but I want to… better yet… I have to move on. I can’t stay stuck in the past like those AA members. My shrink knows about this, because I have been telling him about it for many years. The thing is, that I have come to accept and understand, that I need people in my life, who want to move on, not stay stuck in the past.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

2 thoughts on “Rethinking AA

  1. AA tells us that we should not regret the past, nor wish to shut the door on it. While I can still speak of my past, I always follow it up with a solution and share with how, because of AA, I don’t live that way anymore. That being said, if you’re going to meetings and all they are talking about are “war stories,” find another meeting. Good AA meetings focus on the solution to alcoholism in the literature and the steps. I don’t live in the past anymore, but I definitely don’t want to ever forget where I came from. It is often a great deterrent for reverting back to old ways. I have been sober almost 8 years and tried everything before giving the twelve steps a go.

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    1. That’s the whole thing that I hate, the same people in different AA meetings, telling the same 10, 20 and 30 year old story. I think that what those people really need is professional help

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