I’m Quitting Risperidone

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First things first my peeps! Today is Wednesday August 29, 2018 and it means that I have been sober for two months and eleven days or rather yet, a total of seventy-two days. As always, I feel like Tony the tiger… GRRRRREAT!

On a crazy med note! For a while now, I have been on and off Risperidone. As a matter of fact, the last time that I tried it, was last Sunday night. The thing is, that on Monday morning I felt tired and drowsy. On my way to the subway station in the morning, I felt as if I was dragging my feet. It felt like if I was carrying a ton all the way to the salt mines. So I decided to just stop taking the shit and tell my shrink when we have our next session. I’ve always told people, to try their crazy meds first and see how it goes. If it doesn’t work out, to stop taking them, to talk to their shrink about the side effects and what other options are out there. And that’s exactly what I am doing, following my own advice. So my next session will be next month, I’ll just wait and see what we come up with.

As for my loyal five to ten readers, I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nothing or nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

The Fucking Racing Thoughts

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First things first my peeps! Today is Thursday August 2, 2018 and it means that I have been sober for one month and fifteen days or forty-five days or even better yet, since I’m a weekend binge drinker, 6 weekends. As always, I feel like Tony the tiger… GRRRRREAT! No anxiety, no depression, no hangover, no regrets… I mean nothing! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a crazy med note! To be honest with you, I haven’t been taking the Risperidone for a couple of weeks now. It’s not that I hate taking it, it’s just that regularly, by the time that I remember to take it, it’s too late at night. You see, if I don’t take it by around 8:00 pm, the next day, I feel sleepy most of the morning, even if I just take half a pill like my shrink told me to. The whole thing that I have noticed about not taking it is, that I keep having these crazy racing thoughts. I really hate them, because they don’t make sense to me and because they are about people and things that I really don’t give a shit about. To be honest with you, I have come to realize, that even though sometimes I don’t want to take my crazy meds, they really do help me with my daemons.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

My Bipolar Racing Thoughts

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If you read my previous post about the crazy med Risperidone, right here. You would know by now, that my shrink Dr. C, put me on it a while back to help me with my Bipolar II disorder. At first I was taking 2 mg in the morning and 2 mg in the evening. The problem was, that when I took it in the morning, it would make me drowsy and I was falling asleep at work. So my shrink advised me, to only take 2 mg at bedtime, which has actually helped me with my sleep. Risperidone belongs to a class of drugs called atypical antipsychotics. It works by helping to restore the balance of certain natural substances in the brain.

So the thing is, that lately I have noticed that in the morning, I’m not having any racing thoughts, like I did before. Just in case you didn’t know, racing thoughts are fast, repetitive thought patterns about a particular topic, which are a common feature of anxiety and other mental-health disorders. The only thing is, that as the day passes, so does the effect of the crazy med. Right now, I’m currently thinking about taking 1 mg in the morning. But in order to try that out, I’ll have to wait until the weekend, just in case I feel drowsy and shit.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Don’t Believe The Hype About Crazy Meds

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What up! What up! What up! What up y’all! I Just hope that wherever you are right now in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a great morning, afternoon, evening or night. Enjoy your Wednesday to the fullest and don’t let absolutely nobody or nothing, fuck it up for you, no matter what happens. Now!... On my drinking side of things, today is my sixteenth alcohol free day and I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT!

On a crazy meds note! I remember, that around thirteen years ago, when I started taking crazy meds for the first time, as soon as I got the meds from my drug dealer (Pharmacist), I would go online to learn about them, but most importantly, to find out about the possible side effects and to read what others had experienced while on them and what were their thoughts. The thing was, that with the online over-saturation of information about crazy meds, I used to get worked up over absolutely nothing. I remember that just a few minutes after taking my first dose, I would start feeling weird, when in reality, it took about a week or so, before I felt something. My point? If you are put on crazy meds, do go ahead and do some research online, just don’t go overboard. Also, don’t believe all the bullshit that you read online, you have to remember that crazy meds affect everyone differently. Plus, if you are giving crazy meds a try, you must have patience and roll with the punches.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

The Risperidone Side Effect

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Good morning and happy Saturday y’all! As always, I hope that you are having a great morning, noon, evening or night depending on where you find yourself at this moment in time in this crazy planet of ours. Also, don’t forget to enjoy your day to the fullest and please, do not let nobody mess it up for you no matter what happens. Remember to say good morning, good night, please, thank you, hello and goodbye with a smile on your face… trust me it won’t kill you. Unless you say it to a serial killer!

First things first!… For those of my loyal two or three readers who might not know by now, Risperidone is an atypical antipsychotic drug that in my case, was prescribed to me, in order to keep my bipolar II disorder mood swings under control. The thing is, that even though I have been taking it once a day for a couple of weeks now and only at night, compared to before when I took it twice a day and I was falling asleep at work, right now I’m still waking up in the morning feeling drowsy. I’ve noticed that it stays in my system for around twelve hours or so. My problem is, that I can’t take it at 5:00 pm because I have things to do when I get home from work at around 5:15 pm… I can’t even do that on the weekends. Yesterday, the only solution that I came up with, was taking half a pill instead of an entire one. I guess I’ll just have to go with that plan for a couple of days and see how it goes with the drowsiness and my mood. Fingers crossed! Then I’ll let my shrink Dr. C know about it, when I see him again in our next session. I know that he will understand, because he always works with me with everything that I need.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

I’m Back On Risperidone

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Good morning and happy Monday y’all! I know exactly what you might be thinking right about now. What the fuck can possibly be so fucking happy about a Monday Tony? Hey!… at least we are alive. That’s what really counts. Like always, I hope that you are having a great morning, noon, evening or night depending on where you find yourself at this moment in time in this crazy planet of ours. Also, don’t forget to enjoy your day to the fullest and pleasedo not let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a crazy med note! Last Wednesday April 11, I had another session with my excellent shrink Dr. C. As usual, he asked about my bipolar mood and OCD intrusive thoughts, at which time I told him that nothing has changed. You see, Prozac has only helped me with my depression and anxiety, but not my intrusive thoughts. But that’s another post. So to make sure that I don’t experience any mood swings, which I have in the past, we decided that I will go back on Risperidone, The thing is, that I used to take it twice a day, and when I took my second dose while at work, I would get really drowsy and sometimes even fall asleep at my desk. So this time, we decided that I will only take 2 mg at night. The truth is, that I really like taking the Risperidone at night, because together with the Ambien, I feel that I get more sleep.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

I’m Back On Prozac

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Good morning and happy Thursday y’all! I know! I know! I know! I know! I know! We still have one more fucking day to go Tony. Guess what? FUCK IT! At least, we should all be glad that at we made it this far. So do me a big favor and turn that stupid looking frown upside down… pleeeeease! And as always, I hope that you are having a good morning, good day or good night, depending on where you are in this crazy planet of ours. But most importantly, remember to enjoy your day to the fullest and DO NOT!… I repeat… DO NOT! let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens or goes on.

On another note! A couple of months ago, I went off of Prozac, just to see if I really needed the crazy med. And by the way, that is something that I do not suggest my loyal 1.5 readers do without first consulting with their shrink. The whole thing is, that it really sucked. I mean, at the same time I was going through some personal problems at home and shit. But I can tell you, that I was waking up all fucked up and depressed in the morning. Sometimes I would feel better as the day dragged on, but it really sucked. After seeing my shrink a few weeks ago, I decided to go back on a low dosage of Prozac, but I eventually upped my dosage to the original amount that I used to be on, which is 80mg a day. I have to say, that I don’t feel depressed in the morning anymore and I do feel way, way better. In other words, do not fuck around with your crazy meds, unless your shrink gives you the OK to do it. What did I get out my little shitty experiment? A few weeks feeling like shit!

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!