Three Sober Months

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What up! What up! What up my peeps! Today is Tuesday September 18, 2018 and it means that I have been sober for three months or rather yet, ninety-two days in total. As always, I feel like Tony the tiger… GRRRRREAT!

OK! OK! OK! OK! OK my peeps!… YES I DID IT AGAIN!… You can stop the applause and sit down now! I broke my sober record yet again, by staying sober for three months for the first time in the last three years. I have to say, that it really feels fucking incredible, to wake up on a Monday morning, with no hangover from binge drinking the entire weak end. Don’t get me wrong, I had some stinking thinking and drunk dreams, but that doesn’t matter as long as I stay away from my good old friend… alcohol. I really do feel great, since I haven’t had a hangover in three months. My trick to not drinking on the weak ends is, keeping busy by doing different things, like go shopping with my wife, go to parties, listen to music or even watch some reruns of my favorite sitcoms that I have previously recorded. Sometimes I do get bored, so I take naps and walk to the store to get something to eat or even cigarettes. The thing about my sobriety is, that I have to look for different ways to keep my crazy weekend binge drinking brain busy, as long as I do that, I’ll be OK. Right now, I’m looking forward to four sober months. WOO-HOO!

As for my loyal 1.5 readers, I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nothing or nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Another Drunk Dream

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What up! What up! What up y’all! Today is Thursday September 13, 2018 and it means that I have been sober for two months and twenty-six days or rather yet, eighty-seven days. As always, I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT!

On another drunk dream note! To some of you it might sound a little crazy, but last night I had another drunk dream. The good thing was, that it was a very short one. I think it just lasted a few seconds and then I woke up. I know that maybe 1 out of my loyal 1.5 readers, might think that I keep getting these dreams, because I’ve been thinking a lot about drinking. But that’s not it. I think it’s just a way for my brain to fuck with me, because it has nothing better to do. I still get some desire to drink on some weak ends, but that’s about it, you know, the usual stinking thinking. I have to say, that I’ve been feeling fucking great these couple of months. Actually, in a couple of days, I will be celebrating my three sober months anniversary. Woo-Hoo!

As for my loyal five to ten readers, I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nothing or nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

A Sober Vacation Day

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First things first y’all! Today is Monday September 10, 2018 and it means that I have been sober for two months and twenty-three days or rather yet, eighty-four days in total and as always, I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT! No anxiety, no depression, no hangover, no regrets… I mean nothing!

On another sober weekend note! I have to say, that since the weekends are what I call my weak ends, because I only binge drink on weekends, today I have to mention, that I have been sober for thirteen weekends in a row. WOO-HOO! I have to admit that it hasn’t been easy, but one thing for sure is, that as time went by, it did get easier for me. I really don’t miss all the bullshit that comes after a weak end of binge drinking… like for example, the upset stomach, nausea, vomiting, headache, anxiety, depression and regrets. As a matter of fact, I decided to take today, my first no hangover vacation day in a long ass time. I’m just going to run a couple of errands with my wife and then hopefully, I will be chilling like a villain at home.

As for my loyal 1.5 readers, I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nothing or nobody fuck it up for you no matter goes down.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

My Drunk Dreams

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What up! What up! What up my homies! Today is Friday August 31, 2018 and it means that I have been sober for two months and thirteen days or rather yet, a grand total of seventy-four days. As always, I feel like Tony the tiger… GRRRRREAT! I am so fucking looking forward to my first sober three-day weekend in a long ass time. Woo! Hoo!

On a drunk dreaming note! When I was sober for five years, I had my share of drunk dreams. Just in case five out of my ten loyal readers don’t know what drunk dreaming is, it’s having a dream in which I fucked up my sobriety, by getting drunk. The thing is, that even if they are different dreams all the time, the feeling of guilt and shame is all the same. One of the funny thing about those dreams is, that I know that I’m drinking and I know that I’m drunk, but the shit is, that I can’t remember how I got to that point. In other words, when was it that I had my first beer in my dream. I do have to say, that the really fucked part of it all is, waking up shitting bricks, because the dreams are so real, that I actually think, that I did go to bed drunk. I mean, it takes a few seconds for me to realize that it was just another one of my stupid drunk dreams, but for those few seconds, I feel like shit, because I think that I fucked up my sobriety. There have even been instances, when after a drunk dream, I felt hungover for a couple of hours after I wake up. I know it’s hard to believe, but it does happen. Well, after all is said and done, they are just drunk dreams. Nothing more, nothing less. I just have to take it one weak end at a time.

As for my loyal five to ten readers, I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nothing or nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens or goes down.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

My Weak End Plans

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What up! What up! What up my peeps! Today is Tuesday August 28, 2018 and it means that I have been sober for two month and ten days or rather yet, seventy-one days in total. The way that I was thinking about it the other day was, that out of the three summer months, I only drank during the first one and I’ve been sober for the last two. Which is not bad, since this is the longest that I’ve been sober for in the last three years. You can say that I am taking it one weak end at a time.

The crazy shit about the whole thing is, that ever since I decided to stay sober, my wife and I have been invited to more get together, barbeques and parties by family, friends and coworkers, than any other time or even year. I have to say… it is fucking crazy. The way that I look at it is, that I’m just being tested… yes, tested to see if I really can and want to stay sober. For example, this coming weekend, since it’s a three-day weekend, we have been invited to a wedding reception on Saturday evening by one of my wife’s cousins. Then to a get together on Sunday afternoon, by a friend of ours, who I grew up with and who I call one of my two little brothers. As always, there will be people drinking around me, but you can be sure that I’ll behave… because I want to stay sober, I’ll have my security guard (My wife) with me and I’ll be driving. So don’t cry for me Argentina, you can be sure that everything will be A-OK.

As for my loyal five to ten readers, I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nothing or nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Feeling Good Monday

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First things first y’all! Today is Monday August 27, 2018 and it means that I have been sober for two months and nine days or rather yet, 70 days and as always, I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT! No anxiety, no depression, no hangover, no regrets… I mean nothing!

OK kids! I have to say, that it really feels fucking awesome to be able to go to work on a Monday, without a hangover or even having to call in at the last-minute to request a vacation day. As a matter of fact, I still have five vacation days left, which is a first for me in a long ass time. I have to say, that I have been doing better and better, when it comes to being around people who are drinking alcohol. There have been times, when I felt like having just a couple of cold ones, but that is just stupid thinking. Other than that, I have been doing pretty good. I guess that my trick is, to keep myself busy on the weekends, which I like to actually call my weak ends, since I only drink during those days. I can also say, that on my mental side of things, my bipolar II, OCD and Social Anxiety Disorders have been behaving. I did felt depressed a little while back, but the dark cloud has lifted. I really can’t complain, because things are looking good.

As for my loyal five to ten readers, I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nothing or nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

The Dark Cloud Is Moving

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On the depressive side of my life, I still feel under a dark cloud, but I assure you, that It has been getting better as the days go by. Plus don’t worry for me Argentina, because thank God, my depression phases have never escalate to a point where I contemplate suicide. In others words, I just feel down, sad, like shit and everything in between, but it doesn’t go beyond that.

On the good side of my life, today I am proud of myself, because I have been sober for eight straight weekends, something that I haven’t been able to accomplish in the last three years. Actually, the most that I have been sober for during that time, has been five weekends. I have to say, that I really feel good because it’s been a while since I had to deal with all the bullshit that comes after a weekend of binge drinking.

As for my loyal 1.5 readers, I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nothing or nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!