I’m Not Down With OPP

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First things first y’all! Today is Thursday August 8, 2018 and it means that I have been sober for one month and twenty-two days or rather yet, fifty-two days. As always, I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT! No anxiety, no depression, no hangover, no regrets… I mean nothing! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On Other People’s Problem Note! From my mother and father’s marriage, my six older sisters and I were born, but I have no brothers. From my father’s cheating side, I have two half-brothers and two half-sisters. I get along with my six older sisters. As to my half siblings, I tried to start a relationship a long time ago with them, but I guess they were not interested, but that’s no biggie to me. You see, the one thing that came naturally to me has been, that I’ve never liked getting involved in Other People’s Problems (OPP) and that specially includes my sisters. The way that I have always looked at it is, that as long as I don’t get involved in other people’s shit, they won’t have a reason, to get involved in my shit. Another thing that I’ve learned in life is, that when people asks for my opinion, they tend to do it, with the intention that I will agree with them or I will say exactly what they want to hear, even if I thought or knew that they were wrong. I have always stayed away from situations like that, because when the shit hits the fan, I don’t want to be blamed for giving out bad advice. The way that I live my life is simple… I don’t fuck with other people’s shit, so others won’t fuck with my shit. It is as simple as that. The thing about me is, that I don’t like drama and or problems in my life. If they do come into my life, trust me, it is only because they found me, not because I went out looking for them. Life is simple, just keep it moving.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Influential People

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First things first my peeps! Today is Tuesday July 24, 2018 and it marks my 36th sober day and as always, I feel like Tony the tiger… GRRRRREAT! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On an influential note! I don’t know if you might have noticed by now, but on the right side of this here crazy and boring blog of mine, there’s a widget that shows the names and links of people who I find to be influential to me. The truth is, that they are not influential to me, because they are rich and famous, they are influential because of what they went through and what they did accomplished in life. I personally think, that today’s youth, looks up to people who are celebrities, rich and famous as role models, only because. They don’t take the time to do the research in order to find out, where those people come from and what obstacles they had to overcome in life. But in a way, I do understand them, because when I was growing up in the neighborhood of Washington Heights in New York City, there were no role models that I could have looked up to. Back in the 80’s, when I was a teenager, the people who some of my friends saw as role models, were big time drug dealers. I can say that I was lucky that I saw them for what they really were. Hmmmmm! looking back now, my mother and father were actually my role models and the most influential people in my life. It’s crazy, but I never looked at them that way.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Fuck Empathy!

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First things first my peeps! Today is Friday July 20, 2018 and it marks my 32nd sober day and as always, I feel like Tony the tiger… GRRRRREAT! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a fuck empathy note! Some people might think that I’m crazy, an ignorant, going through some kind of bipolar mood swing or better yet, an asshole, but I’m not, I just don’t like to sugar coat shit, because it doesn’t matter if you sugar coat it, put sprinkles and a cherry on top of it… it is still going be shit. Now a days all over the world, all I hear are people talking shit about empathy. To be honest with you, I feel that the world is just full of pussies. Yes that’s right!… PUSSIES! It just bothers me, to see so many people complain on a daily basis, how their lives are fucked up, yet they don’t do shit to change it. The thing is, that when people like myself say something, we are looked upon as the bad guys. To be honest with you, I don’t entertain bullshit. At work, I’ve seen a guy who is missing half of his left arm, a guy on a wheelchair and many others with mental and physical disabilities, who everyday go to work. So please, explain to me, why I should feel empathy for people who don’t want to do shit with their lives, except complain? Trust me, I feel empathy for those who are struggling in life and are trying to make the best of it. It’s just that small group of assholes, that don’t want to do shit, but complain.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

It’s OK To Give Up

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What up! What up! What up my peeps! Today is Tuesday July 17, 2018 and it marks my 29th sober day and as always, I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT! No anxiety, no depression, no hangover, no regrets… I mean nothing! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a giving up note! Growing up, we are told never to give up, that the sky is the limit and to follow our dreams. The reality of it all is, that we can’t listen to all that bullshit. I know that we have to try our best in life, but one thing for sure is, that we can’t go crazy while we are at it. Hey look, I’ve dropped out college three times… Yes you read that right… Three times. The thing is, that I already gave up on my dream of getting a college degree. The reason for that is, that I’m happy where I’m at in life right now. I’m not saying that my life is perfect, but I feel comfortable the way that everything is going. I do have my share of financial, family and mental problems, but they are not things that a degree is going to change or fix. I used to kick myself in the ass a lot before, not anymore, because I’m OK with who I have become.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Sometimes Life Is Fucked Up!

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What up! What up! What up y’all! Today is Sunday July 15, 2018 and it marks my 27th sober day and as always, I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a blame game note! I have to say, that most of the times life is fucking crazy to say the least. I’ve been reading the book “Fresh off the boat” by Eddie Huang and I have to say, for a long time, I used to think that I had a really fucked up childhood. But reading about this guy’s past, I really can’t complain. You see, I really can’t remember the day that my parents hit me, because they never did. I really can’t remember, the day that they punished me, because they never did. Well, I do have to add, that as a child, I was shy and quiet and only got into fights or trouble, when someone fucked me first. Other than that, I kept to myself. The thing is, that I’m tired of grown ass motherfuckers, blaming their parents and others for everything that is wrong with their adult life. Don’t get me wrong, I did go through some shits in life while growing up… and I used to blame my parents and others, but after a while, I took responsibility for my mistakes as an adult. My point? Stop blaming others for your fuck ups! Just like everything in life, parents are not perfect, but if you keep fucking up as an adult and you keep blaming others, then the problem is not them… YOU ARE THE PROBLEM! 

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Don’t Make Me Adult Today

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What up! What up! What up! What up y’all! Wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, I hope that you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. As always, enjoy your Sunday to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On an adult life note! The other day, I was thinking about how easy life was when I was a kid. I didn’t have to worry about adult things like paying rent, bills and buying groceries, etc, etc, etc. The thing about it is, that I always told my kids to enjoy their youth, because once they hit twenty-one, a lot of responsibilities would come with that age. They didn’t care, they just wanted to be older, in order to be free and do as they pleased. It’s funny, because now that they are twenty-eight and twenty-three and they see themselves having to wake up early in the morning and going to work five days a week, they don’t see the fun in it. I know the feeling, but it is what it is. Five days a week, I too have to get up at 4:00 am and don’t get back home until around 5:30 pm. Sometimes I wish that I could go back to when I was a little kid. But then again, who wants to be a kid for the rest of their life? I know that adult life is not easy, but I get to do things that I would never be able to do as a kid. We just have to put on our grownup underwear and like they say… face the music.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!