Famous For Nothing

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I remember that back in the days, when some kids were asked what they wanted to be when they grew up, they would say rich and famous. The thing about that answer is, that being an extremely shy person my entire life, I could never understand how so many people just wanted to be famous. My thing is, that I’ve never liked being the center of attention or even getting any attention at all. Even in school, I remember sitting in the back of the classroom, just so the teachers wouldn’t call on me. I recall one of my teachers, telling my mother, that I was a very intelligent student, but that even if I knew the answer to a question, I would never raise my hand. Back then, what nobody knew, including myself was, that I suffered from social anxiety disorder.

Another thing that has been baffling me for many, many, many years now is, how so many young people now a days, just want to be famous for being famous. To be honest with you, I don’t have a problem with someone becoming rich and famous either because the person had a talent like Michael Jackson did or because the person contributed something positive to humanity one way or the other, like Bill Gates did. But for someone to want to be rich and famous for no reason? Is something that I will never fucking understand. I’ve always told family and friends, that if I ever become a millionaire, by winning the lottery, some people will see me as a really strange millionaire, because I would continue to be the same person that I am today, because I wouldn’t go around getting in trouble by doing dumb ass shit in public in order to get attention, wearing expensive clothes, jewelry, driving expensive cars and throwing money on people’s face. In other words, I would keep my shit on the lowdown and real.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Blame It On The Rain

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First things first my homies and homettes! Wherever you are in this crazy, funny, insane, strange and weird planet of ours, good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. As always, try to enjoy it to the fullest and remember, do not to let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens or goes down.

On a sober note! Today is Thursday November 8, 2018 and that means that I have been sober for one hundred forty-three days in a row or better yet, four months and twenty-one days in total. Woo-Hoo! I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT!

Now, on a blaming game note! Never in my entire life, have I said or pretended to be perfect or to be an angel, because I have and I will from time to time make mistakes and fuck ups just like the person before and after me. But the one thing that I can say is, that whenever I make a mistake or I fuck up, I take it as a learning experience and as a chance to reflect on my behavior, way of thinking and way of seeing things. Now getting to my point. It’s just that it is so fucked up, how now a days, so many grown ass people, just keep fucking up and blaming it on everybody else and their mother. I have to admit, that when I was younger, I use to blame everything that went and was going wrong in my life on my parents, society and even the government, but specifically my father, for his disappearing act, when I was around eleven or twelve years old, then reappearing when I was around twenty-four years old, like if nothing ever happened.

My thing is, that as I got older, I came to realize and understand, that no matter all the shit that I went through when I was younger, I was calling the shots now that I was older. So in time, I started to get away from the blaming others mentality. Just as I came into this world, my kids did not come with instructions, so I just try to be a good dad to my kids. I have always told them that I will always be there for them, I talk to them, I give them advice and I always tell them to be nice to others. In the end, just as I did when I was young, they will make their own choices and choose their own paths. Like they say, you can lead a horse to water but you can’t make it drink. But blaming others for not drinking the water, is a totally different shit. Also, keep in mind, that to me, a mistake is unintentional, but a fuck up is intentional.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

My Age Vs My Maturity

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First things first my homies and homettes. Wherever you are in this crazy, funny, insane, strange and weird planet of ours, good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. As always, try to enjoy your day to the fullest and remember not to let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what goes down.

Sometimes I just like to throw everything in the garbage and start fresh all over again. In case you have been wondering, that has been the case with this blog many times. The only explanation that I have for my behavior is, that my mind works in mysterious ways that I might never ever understand, and sometimes I just go along with it, because at the time, it might look like a good idea. Keep in mind that look and is are two different words with two different meanings.

On a sober note, I am happy to let my loyal 1.5 readers, that even though I haven’t posted here in a while, I’m still sober. As a matter of fact, as of today, I have been sober for four months and twenty days.

On a birthday note, on Friday October 19, 2018, I turned forty-nine years old. YES! YES! YES! I KNOW! I’m one year away from THE BIG FIVE O. The truth is, that I have always looked at age as just a number. Like they say Age does not measure maturity“. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I have learned and changed a lot as a husband, father, brother, friend, neighbor, co-worker and human being. I Just know that none of it had to do with my age, it all had to do with what I have experienced in life as a whole. But don’t worry about it, because the changes have been for the best. I feel that right now, compared to many years ago, I have more patience, I am more caring, tolerant and understanding. Now don’t get it all wrong and look at it as a sign of weakness, it doesn’t mean that I let people walk all over me, It just means that I try to understand where people are coming from and why they behave the way that they do. For some weird reason, I’ve always liked analyzing people, so sometimes, I tell my wife jokingly, that I should have been a shrink. Can you imagine that! LMFAO!

With that said! I am  Audi 5000 y’all!