Feeling Down

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Even though I work from Monday through Friday and I get up at around 4:00 am to get ready to head on out to the salt mines (work). There are days that I just don’t want to have any type of human interaction. I feel like throwing my hand up in the air and just saying… FUCK IT! But the reality of it all is, that life doesn’t work like that. Plus if I don’t show up for work, I won’t get paid and if I don’t get paid, then the bills won’t get paid.

To be honest with my loyal 1.5 readers, for the past couple of days, I can honestly say that I have been feeling like shit. Yes, yes, yes! Rather than using the “D word”, I used shit. What’s the D word you asked? Depression! Instead of saying that I am depressed, I like to say that I feel down or that I feel like shit. The thing is, that I felt it coming on Tuesday morning when I was in the train, on my way to the salt mines. As usual, I can’t explain why the fuck I feel like this, since I take my anti depression crazy med every day. But for some weird and unexplained reason, this shit keeps happening to me every once in a while. I guess I’ll just have to ride it out. Fingers crossed.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

TGIF Y’all!

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What up! What up! What up!… TGIF y’all! Today is Friday August 3, 2018 and it means that I have been sober for one month and sixteen days or rather yet, forty-six days. As always, I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT! No anxiety, no depression, no hangover, no regrets… I mean nothing! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a work note! Today I really can’t complain about the schedule at work. First, because it’s finally fucking Friday and I am not going to be on the stupid phone the entire day, I’ll just be covering for two hours, while my co-workers are taking their lunch breaks. And then second, because the majority of the day, I will  be processing government payments on customer’s account… unless one of my co-workers calls in sick or something else happens and my supervisor decides to change the whole shit around, which I hate like hell, because most of the time, I end up with some fucked up shit. It already happened this past Monday, so I won’t be surprised if it happens again today. Fingers crossed though.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!