September Session With My Shrink

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What up! What up! What up my homies! Today is Friday September 7, 2018 and it means that I have been sober for two months and twenty days or rather yet, a grand total of eighty-one days. As always, I feel like Tony the tiger… GRRRRREAT!

OK, on a monthly session with my shrink note! Yesterday I saw my shrink and as always, after talking with him, I felt like if a ton of bricks was lifted off of my shoulders. I have to say, that he was very happy and proud of my sobriety. He even congratulated me a couple of times for being sober for so long. He did asked me how was I doing on the weekends, since that’s the only time that I binge drink. I told him that I have been busy, going out with my wife to two wedding receptions and two get together with a few of my fellow co-workers. But other than that, I’ve doing pretty, pretty good. I mean, aside from my share of stinking thinking and a drunk dream, I’m really doing good. As a matter of fact, I specially don’t miss the hangovers, anxiety, depression and regrets that sets in after a weekend of drinking. The first few weekends were not easy for me, but right now, I’m chilling like a villain.

As for my loyal five to ten readers, I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nothing or nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Opposites Do Attract

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What up! What up! What up y’all! Today is Thursday September 6, 2018 and it means that I have been sober for two months and nineteen days or rather yet, eighty days. As always, I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT!

On an opposites do attract personal experience note! My wife and I started dating when we were teenagers. After a while, I noticed that what I liked the most about her was her honesty, character and that she was a strong young woman. What I mean by that is, that she didn’t take shit from absolutely nobody. If she had to tell someone to go fuck his or herself, she did it without thinking about it and with no hesitation at all.

On the other hand, my entire life, I have been a quiet and shy person, with a lot of patience. Don’t get me wrong now, I do get mad and I do tell people to go fuck themselves, but that only happens when the person has been bothering or annoying the fuck out of me for a while. In my case, opposites do attract, because what I found in my wife was, someone who was my complete opposite. For example, I’m very shy and quiet, she’s not, she starts conversations with people who she had never met before in her life. I have a lot of patience, she doesn’t, she has a short temper and wants things done yesterday. I like to think, analyze and plan things first, she just goes for it without a plan. Even if someone makes me feel really, really bad, I try not to offend that person back, she doesn’t, she tells the person off in a very strong way, without thinking about the person’s feelings and making sure that the person understands, that she’s not going to take that shit from nobody. I like to keep my opinions to myself, she’s very opinionated and makes sure that everyone knows it. You have to understand, that my wife is the type of person, who would give anyone and I mean anyone the shirt off her back or the last dollar in her purse, just don’t get on her bad side, because she sure won’t take that shit from nobody… and from time to time, that includes our two adult children and me. You see, for many, many years now, I have come to believe, that the reason why we have lasted thirty years together, is because we are two totally and completely different people. What’s even funnier is, that it happened with my parents and is happening with my twenty-eight year old daughter and her boyfriend.

As for my loyal five to ten readers, I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nothing or nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

I’m Quitting Risperidone

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First things first my peeps! Today is Wednesday August 29, 2018 and it means that I have been sober for two months and eleven days or rather yet, a total of seventy-two days. As always, I feel like Tony the tiger… GRRRRREAT!

On a crazy med note! For a while now, I have been on and off Risperidone. As a matter of fact, the last time that I tried it, was last Sunday night. The thing is, that on Monday morning I felt tired and drowsy. On my way to the subway station in the morning, I felt as if I was dragging my feet. It felt like if I was carrying a ton all the way to the salt mines. So I decided to just stop taking the shit and tell my shrink when we have our next session. I’ve always told people, to try their crazy meds first and see how it goes. If it doesn’t work out, to stop taking them, to talk to their shrink about the side effects and what other options are out there. And that’s exactly what I am doing, following my own advice. So my next session will be next month, I’ll just wait and see what we come up with.

As for my loyal five to ten readers, I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nothing or nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

My Weak End Plans

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What up! What up! What up my peeps! Today is Tuesday August 28, 2018 and it means that I have been sober for two month and ten days or rather yet, seventy-one days in total. The way that I was thinking about it the other day was, that out of the three summer months, I only drank during the first one and I’ve been sober for the last two. Which is not bad, since this is the longest that I’ve been sober for in the last three years. You can say that I am taking it one weak end at a time.

The crazy shit about the whole thing is, that ever since I decided to stay sober, my wife and I have been invited to more get together, barbeques and parties by family, friends and coworkers, than any other time or even year. I have to say… it is fucking crazy. The way that I look at it is, that I’m just being tested… yes, tested to see if I really can and want to stay sober. For example, this coming weekend, since it’s a three-day weekend, we have been invited to a wedding reception on Saturday evening by one of my wife’s cousins. Then to a get together on Sunday afternoon, by a friend of ours, who I grew up with and who I call one of my two little brothers. As always, there will be people drinking around me, but you can be sure that I’ll behave… because I want to stay sober, I’ll have my security guard (My wife) with me and I’ll be driving. So don’t cry for me Argentina, you can be sure that everything will be A-OK.

As for my loyal five to ten readers, I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nothing or nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Feeling Good Monday

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First things first y’all! Today is Monday August 27, 2018 and it means that I have been sober for two months and nine days or rather yet, 70 days and as always, I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT! No anxiety, no depression, no hangover, no regrets… I mean nothing!

OK kids! I have to say, that it really feels fucking awesome to be able to go to work on a Monday, without a hangover or even having to call in at the last-minute to request a vacation day. As a matter of fact, I still have five vacation days left, which is a first for me in a long ass time. I have to say, that I have been doing better and better, when it comes to being around people who are drinking alcohol. There have been times, when I felt like having just a couple of cold ones, but that is just stupid thinking. Other than that, I have been doing pretty good. I guess that my trick is, to keep myself busy on the weekends, which I like to actually call my weak ends, since I only drink during those days. I can also say, that on my mental side of things, my bipolar II, OCD and Social Anxiety Disorders have been behaving. I did felt depressed a little while back, but the dark cloud has lifted. I really can’t complain, because things are looking good.

As for my loyal five to ten readers, I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nothing or nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

The Dark Cloud Is Moving

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On the depressive side of my life, I still feel under a dark cloud, but I assure you, that It has been getting better as the days go by. Plus don’t worry for me Argentina, because thank God, my depression phases have never escalate to a point where I contemplate suicide. In others words, I just feel down, sad, like shit and everything in between, but it doesn’t go beyond that.

On the good side of my life, today I am proud of myself, because I have been sober for eight straight weekends, something that I haven’t been able to accomplish in the last three years. Actually, the most that I have been sober for during that time, has been five weekends. I have to say, that I really feel good because it’s been a while since I had to deal with all the bullshit that comes after a weekend of binge drinking.

As for my loyal 1.5 readers, I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nothing or nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Two Months Later

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What up! What up! What up my peeps! Today is Saturday August 18, 2018 and I’m really fucking happy and excited, because I am celebrating my two month sober anniversary. As always, I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT! No anxiety, no depression, no hangover, no regrets… I mean nothing! To be honest with my loyal 1.5 readers, this has been the longest that I have been sober for, in the last three years, ever since I fucked up my five years of sobriety. As for celebrating, today I will drink my ass off, yes you read that right… I will be drinking my ass of with ice tea, soda, water and whatever liquid I can get my hands on, that doesn’t contain any alcohol. In other words, I’ll just be chilling like a villain at home.

As for you guys, I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!