I’d Rather Be Alone

20180710_134229-picsay-46458647886128187276.jpg

About a week ago, an older gentleman, neighbor and also friend of ours, had a mini stroke while playing dominoes with friends in front of our building. When my wife saw him passing out, she was able to act fast and get a hold of him, before he hit the ground. I wasn’t there, but my wife told me, that there were many people around when it happened. When he came to, he stated that he just got dizzy and that there was nothing wrong with him. He was eventually taken to the emergency room, then he was admitted to the hospital for a couple of days and that’s when they found out about the mini stroke.

Then a couple of days ago, my wife told me, that the day that our friend had the mini stroke, someone took a picture of him while he was passed out and they were waiting for an ambulance to arrive, and texted it to his wife, who was on vacation in The Dominican Republic, stating that her husband was passed out drunk. Whoever did that, knows him and his wife pretty well, in order to have her cell phone number handy. I mean, I’ve known him for around thirty years, since I was dating my wife and yet I don’t even have his home phone number. The whole thing is, that some people might feel bad because I’m a loner, but the truth of the matter is, that if I’m not with my family and that includes my dog too, I’d rather be alone than in bad company. Hey look, being a loner is not bad at all, I really enjoy it because I have time to think and be creative.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Eight Sober Weekends

TTV  - Sobriety Test - 1.png

Just in case you didn’t know or as I’m sure… you just don’t give a flying fuck… today is Monday August 13, 2018 and it marks one month and twenty-six days of my sobriety or fifty-six days in total. But since I’m a weekend binge drinker or a weekend warrior and I just love to count weekends, I have been sober for eight straight weekends. Woo-Hoo! Has it been easy? To be honest with you, at first it was a fucking hell, because I would see family members and friends drinking alcohol and having fun… and then there was me. Sitting around, trying to make it look as if I was happy and enjoying every minute of it, when in reality, I felt like shit, because I knew that I couldn’t drink at all.

Do I miss drinking alcohol? Well I’m not going to sit here and lie my ass off as I write this post. At the beginning I sure did, and I mean a lot. But eight weekends later, I can say that I haven’t been having any stinking thinking. Just last weekend, I hanged out with a few of my co-workers for six hours. It really didn’t bother me that some of them were drinking. As a matter of fact, I felt that time flew pretty quickly. I guess that what I’m trying to say is, that as time goes by, my urges to drink are starting to disappear. I know that I will have my good days and my bad days, but I can’t let that shit stop me from staying sober.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

You Are Not Talking To Me? Good!

TTV - Not Talking To You - 1

First things first y’all! Today is Sunday August 12, 2018 and it means that I have been sober for one month and twenty-five days or rather yet, fifty-five days. As always, I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT! No anxiety, no depression, no hangover, no regrets… I mean nothing! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a not talking to me note! Throughout my life, I’ve had many people who have stopped talking to me for some stupid reason or for no reason at all. Do you know what’s funny about that? That I never gave a fuck about it! The thing with me is, that I will never force anyone to be my friend or let alone, talk to me. As a matter of fact, if for whatever stupid reason a person stops talking to me, the way that I look at it is, that the person is actually doing me a big motherfucking favor. Why? Because that will be one less person, that will ask me for a favor. Yes, you read that right… since the person won’t talk to me, he/she won’t be able to ask me for a favor if they need me. The truth of the matter is, that I have bigger and more important problems to worry about in my life.. Like for example, when is the next time that I will be taking a shit? That right there, is more important to me, than worrying about why some dumb stupid asshole, doesn’t want to talk to me.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Keeping Shit Real

TTV - Keep It Real - 1

What up! What up! What up my peeps! Today is Saturday August 10, 2018 and it means that I have been sober for one month and twenty-four days or rather yet, fifty-four days. As always, I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a social media note! A few days ago, I decided to delete everything that I have posted to my social media accounts, because to me it was just a whole bunch of fucking bullshit. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I kept the accounts active, in order to keep in contact with family and friends once in a while. But as to me posting to them, I see it as a big waste of time. To be honest with you, I just got tired of all of the bullshit that people keep posting. The only place that I will keep active on, will be this here crazy and boring blog of mine. WHY? Because I only post once a day and people read it whenever they want to and only if they want to, because I’m not posting something fucking stupid, every fucking minute of the day, because I don’t have a fucking life. Plus I use this blog to deal with my daemons. The way that I see it is, that social media is mostly made up of people who want attention and or are drama kings and queens. It is true that I still have this crazy blog of mine, but I don’t use it to gain attention, followers, fame, money or sympathy from others. With this blog, I keep shit real!

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!one 

My Super Baby Nino

This slideshow requires JavaScript.

What up! What up! What up my peeps! Today is Friday August 10, 2018 and it means that I have been sober for one month and twenty-three days or rather yet, fifty-three days in total. As always, I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a dog lover note! Some people might think that I have a boring life on work days, since I work eight hours a day, five days a week from Monday through Friday, then I just get home and do nothing. But the truth is, that even though I normally don’t go out on work days, aside from my wife and my two human children, my third child is always super happy to hear me whistle when I enter the building, so he knows that I am home. You see, my third child’s name is Nino… actually, I call him “My super dog Nino” since he’s always full of energy when I get home. We rescued him back in 2013, when he was only six months old and we had just lost our other baby to cancer a couple of weeks earlier. The guy who had him, got him from his boss, because she just gave birth and she couldn’t take care of him anymore. He was trying to make a few bucks by selling him to us, but we wouldn’t budge. Until he finally decided to release him to us. His hair was all matted and the kids used to hit him with sticks in the basement where he was kept. To make a long story short, I really don’t know who rescued who, since I was going through a deep depression, because I had just lost my other dog. The only problem with my super dog Nino is, that he is super protective of me and when we are chilling in bed, he doesn’t like nobody coming into the bedroom. My point? Animals do help with depression.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

I’m Not Down With OPP

TTV - Down With OPP - 1

First things first y’all! Today is Thursday August 8, 2018 and it means that I have been sober for one month and twenty-two days or rather yet, fifty-two days. As always, I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT! No anxiety, no depression, no hangover, no regrets… I mean nothing! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On Other People’s Problem Note! From my mother and father’s marriage, my six older sisters and I were born, but I have no brothers. From my father’s cheating side, I have two half-brothers and two half-sisters. I get along with my six older sisters. As to my half siblings, I tried to start a relationship a long time ago with them, but I guess they were not interested, but that’s no biggie to me. You see, the one thing that came naturally to me has been, that I’ve never liked getting involved in Other People’s Problems (OPP) and that specially includes my sisters. The way that I have always looked at it is, that as long as I don’t get involved in other people’s shit, they won’t have a reason, to get involved in my shit. Another thing that I’ve learned in life is, that when people asks for my opinion, they tend to do it, with the intention that I will agree with them or I will say exactly what they want to hear, even if I thought or knew that they were wrong. I have always stayed away from situations like that, because when the shit hits the fan, I don’t want to be blamed for giving out bad advice. The way that I live my life is simple… I don’t fuck with other people’s shit, so others won’t fuck with my shit. It is as simple as that. The thing about me is, that I don’t like drama and or problems in my life. If they do come into my life, trust me, it is only because they found me, not because I went out looking for them. Life is simple, just keep it moving.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Why Sometimes I Just Say Fuck It!

What up! What up! What up my peeps! Today is Wednesday August 8, 2018 and it means that I have been sober for one month and twenty-one days or rather yet, fifty-one days. As always, I feel like Tony the tiger… GRRRRREAT! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a nothing makes sense note! Probably by now, my loyal 1.5 readers have noticed, that there are a lot of things that I don’t bother to blog about, because in my mind, there are a lot of web sites, other bloggers and people who are using social networking sites to express their opinions about those subjects. The thing is, that sometimes, just sometimes, I just feel this crazy urge to say something about some social issues that are going on. But then I turn around and ask myself. What for? Why even bother? The thing with me is, that I see so many people online, advocating and fighting for this cause or that cause… and the reality of it all is, that nothing changes. From when I was in my 20’s, I learned to take care of my wife, kids, myself and to mind my own business. Also to work hard, pay my bills and pay my taxes. Don’t get me wrong, anytime that I see something wrong in my community, I do report it to the corresponding government department and to our government officials. But as usual, my cries fall on deaf ears. Just look at the video I posted above, I reported the problem on July 20, 2018 and nothing has been done. And that is the reason why I like to stay away from blogging about shit like that. It just doesn’t make any fucking sense to me. That’s the reason why I just say fuck it! When it comes to social and local neighborhood issues.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!